Today I ordered invitations for James' second birthday party. We're just having a small get together with family and a few friends, but I love personalizing invitations on snapfish.com. Then I opened my mailing list file to print labels out for them and there in the middle of the page was a label for Mary Lou Smith, my grandma. A wave of pain and sadness came over me and there I was at my desk, having a good cry. I know grief and mourning take time, but I never knew the little ways it would affect me. Like a mailing list for a birthday party.
I can only take it one day at a time, but today was hard.