Normally a post like this might have some silly answers. As parents, we do lots of crazy things that we never would have done without our children. But other times, I really know I'm a mom when there's tragedy happening.
While I hesitate to make tragedies happening to other people about me, there is something about being those boys' mom that makes me feel far more sensitive to the sometimes awful world we live in. I know that I have to raise them in this crazy world and that is a hard challenge to face when it seems evil is lurking around every corner.
On Monday, I went to the gym after work. I hadn't seen anything about the bombings in Boston yet and when I got to the gym, my iPod ran out of batteries. So I plugged my headphones into the gym TV system and every station had news about the bombing on.
I managed to get 15 minutes of working out/listening to the news done before I just knew that I couldn't stay away from the boys for one second longer. So I went to Rhonda's early, scooped both of them up, and gave them an extra long hug. My heart was aching watching the awful news, it was stretched as far as it could go when I gave in and left the gym. They say that having kids is like having your heart outside of your chest and Monday I definitely felt that.
Having kids really has made me a more compassionate and more empathetic person. Sometimes I wish I could shut that off, but in the end I know its not really a bad thing.